but anyway, is anyone else going to see them play tonight?!

-eva

also, follow me on twitter!! twitter.com/evawashere

okay that's it.

<3evaaa

still trying to figure some parts of it out.lol =)

<3eva

What were you doing at 10am this morning?  
sleeping

What were you doing an hour ago?

eating dinner

Do you plan on moving within the next year?  
  no!

Are you wearing anything on your feet?  
  fuzzy slippers that look like piggies =)

What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months?  
 brand new eyes deluxe ed.

Do you remember your dreams?  
 sometimes

Where did your last hug take place?  
  good question

Have you been to a baby shower?  
yep

What cell phone company do you use?  
verizon

What color is your hair brush?  
teal

Do you watch the Super Bowl?  
sometimes

What about World Cup?  

nope

Do you sleep with a teddy bear?  
  nope

What is the last movie you watched?  
 push

What movie do you think everyone should watch?  
yes man

What is your middle name?  
uhhh.................not answerin that. i hate my middle name

Do you have your future children's names picked out?  
no

What color is your mailbox?  
black

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?  
depends on where i'm coming from

What brand is your computer printer?  
hp

How many cars can fit in your driveway?  
like four
Who was your Kindergarden teacher?  
i cant remmebr

Are you taller than your mom?  
same height

Do you have any bruises right now?  
yep

Are you cold right now?  
nope

Do any of your close friends have kids?  
  no

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?  

ummmmm i dont think so?

How many years older and younger than you are you willing to date?  
doesnt really matter

What brand are your favorite jeans you own?  
idk, theyre from pacsun

What is the closest red object to you?  
my mouse for my computer. it looks like a lady bug =)

What is your favorite video game?  
guitar hero

Do you play games on your cell phone?  
 i dont have any on my phone, if i did i would play them

Do you look more like your mom or dad?  
my mom. we look like twins. its scary, and annoying

Have you ever broken an pinata?  
not that i cna remmeber

Do you have an iPod or Mp3 player?  
itouch!

If someone doesnt like you its probably because:  
i pissed them off

Who was the last person in your bedroom?  

idk, id ont think anyone but me has been in my bedroom today

What are your plans for this weekend?  
my grandma is taking me shopping =)

Have you ever crawled through a window?  
yes. lol my basemetn has one of thos 'escape windows' theyre fun to climb out of.

Do you lose your keys often? 

yes all the time

How many keys are on your keychain?

one

When was your last encounter with the police?  

last summer =)

Do you sing in the shower?  
sometimes, lol
Do you always wear your seatbelt in the car?   
yeah, well not if were driving accross a parking lot to get to a different store.lol

okay so last ngiht i went to go see hey monday, this providence, the friday night boys, stereo skyline, and the bigger light. it was an all aroudn amazing show!!!

okay so my dad came home from work at like five =/ and oors opened for the show at six and he still had to eat and get ready and do stuff for work so i was kinda pissed off cause we didnt leave till like 6:20 or something=/. so yeha weo got to allentown, where the concert was, and we couldnt find the crockadile rock cafe. im telling you you would never know there was a concert hall at this place if you just saw it from the outside cause all you see is this pizza place/bar with a bunch of chairs and suff around it for people to sit out side. so me and my dad were really confused, caue we'd never been there before. but some girl showed told us just to go into the pizza place and then there these stairs that go to the cafe under which is this really nice lounge. there we picked up the tickects and liek the next room more or less is the concert hall. its pretty tiny. the stage is only liek 12 feet or something.and the standing room area was small too only like twelve feet wide caus eof the bar and liek maybe thirty feet back.

so yeha basically we cmae late and just kinda chilled at the back of the crowd for the last song and a half of the stereo skyline set(we missed the bigger lights =/) so after stereo skyline finnished their set a buncha people left and my dad and i moved up and got stuck between this fricken fat tall guy so i couldn't see anything for the friday night boys set. i ended up resorting to standing on the bottom bar of the barrier, but sercurity yelled ta me. ahh well. toward the end of the friday ngiht boys set the big buy in front of my started jumping liek a maniac and almost jumped on my twice. i was like o.O. it was kinda scary. this really nice girl diagonally back from the mad room for me in front of her though and pulle dme over so i didn't get crushed by the big dude.lol. i had an alright view fro the rest of the friday night boys set. they were pretty good.

so after the friday night boys came this providence. i managed to move up far enough to get pictures on my cell(i forgot my camera at home=////) this providnece was AMAZING. and during the last song from their set dan fricken jumped into the crowd i was like AHHHHHH! and everyone liek ran toward him, but security pulled him back real quick. it was funny.

so then after this providence playe dit was hey mondya. more people left after this providence so i got up to be liek five people from the front. the hey monday sound check guys took FOREVER. people kinda got mad and started chanting hey monday. and they finaly came out. Jersey's family and friends were at the showso when hey mondya came on they formed a huge line and shoved their way to the front. i almost got knocked over a few times. and after they shoved their way up everyone just like rushed the stage. it was crazy, i probably would have gtten squished to detah if it wasnt for my dad.lol. hey mondya played really well. they're amazing. at one point during their set mike got the idea of making us do the wve. so he was liek hey if you guys go the wave ill dump this water on you so we pretty much agreed cause it was liek 100 degrees in there. so yeha i got sprayed right in the face with water. it felt sooo goood.lol. and then cassadee passed out those red plastic cups to random people in the crowd(i caught one!) and told us to throw them around so we did. it looked pretty funny. oh and if anyone knows the name of that one song Cassadee plays that i guess unreleased(the accoustic one...not candles) please tell me cause i missed the name! so  yeha hey mondya was amazing, and then during the last refrain during how you love me now(their last song) cassadee told us to put all of our cameras and phones away and get really wild...which we did.everyone was jumping, screaming, singing, and shiving each othre. and then jersey's fam/friends started a mosh pit right next to me which i kinda got cought in adn then my dad pulle dme out cause i was liek a dwarf compared to the rest of these people in the mosh pit.lol. it was great and then everyone in the badn who had a guitar pick thre it at the end and one landed right by me and i grabbed it and this girl tried to rip it out of my had so we were like fighting over it. and hen she yanked it out of my hand i was liek ugh bitch. but whatever.lol. so then we heaxed to the merch booths and got some shirts and cds and chilled with this providence fro a little bit. i didn't really stick aroudn to see if hey modnay was gona come and hang out because i had to pee real bad.lol.

so yep thtas it. that ended up being reeeallllyyyy longggg.ahh well. oh adn here are some pictures. they turnedoout real crappy cause i used my cell =( sorry.

This Providence

Hey Monday

After the show

this is something i just kinda came up with based loosley on the song 'The Way She Feels' by Between the Trees. i don't know how much i like this, but i decided to post it anyway. if you haven't heard the song watch the video =)

oh and i had a banner for this but buzznet won't let me upload it...?

Hayley’s POV

As I walked through the door, I could hear my step-dad screaming, my mom crying. He was drunk – again. I didn’t even want to know what they were fighting about this time. I was just glad my sisters weren’t home to witness our family life being ripped apart at the seams. Life at home was hell. Life at school was hell. And the only thing that made it better was Josh, but he was mad at me. Wouldn’t talk to me. Not since he found out about my addiction.

I heard the something shatter and more screaming and cursing coming from downstairs. I don’t understand. My step-dad is a great guy, but when he drinks, he’s so different, so violent. I used to be scared of him, used to run when I heard my mom fight with him, but now I don’t. He could kill me for all I care. I sat down on my bed. My phone vibrated. It was Sarah, a girl on my bus. She was kind of nice I guess. My only friend other than Josh. I opened my phone and read her text.

Omg, is it true what everyone is saying about you? If it is, that’s just messed up. You need help!

I threw my phone out of anger. Nobody understood!! Not Josh, not Sarah. Not anyone. Then it hit me I was alone in this. In everything.

Before even thinking about what I was doing, I ran over to my dresser and yanked open the drawer. I searched for that little hidden familiar compartment in it underneath all of my clothes. I grabbed out a little orange container and shook it. Nothing. I grabbed the other container and shook it. It made a sound, but not the one that I was looking for. Not the one that showed that the little white pills that I was so used to swallowing when things got to hard were filling it. I pulled the container out and opened it. Inside was not what I had expected. It was a note.

Don’t do this to yourself, Hayles.

I screamed in rage as I threw the canister at the wall. Hot tears were rolling down my cheeks. How could my mom do this to me! Why the hell was she going through my freaking stuff? I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I hate her...

I did the only other thing I could think of. I grabbed the knife out from under my bed and rolled up my sleeve. I didn’t want to deal with my mom, my step-dad, Josh, Sarah, or the people at school. I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. I wanted to not be able to remember anything. I wanted everything to be dark and silent. I just wanted to die.

As I closed my eyes, I could feel my arm stinging as I pulled the knife across my wrist slowly. I wanted to call out in pain, but I didn’t. I wanted someone to stop me but no one came. As soon as the stinging subsided I slid the knife across my wrist again, harder this time. I felt the warm blood begin to rush down my arm. This time I welcomed the pain. It gave me something to focus on.

Just as I was about to repeat my little ritual over again, I heard the door open. “Hey, Hayl-“ my little sister stood wide eyed.

“Fuck off, Erica.” I screamed. I saw tears forming in her eyes as he quickly slammed the door shut. I heard her run down the stairs. I felt terrible that I yelled at her like that. She didn’t deserve it. The hurt look in her eye when she must have realized what I was doing almost killed me. Maybe I should stop? I quickly shook the thought away. Biting my lip, I raised the knife for a fourth time to finish what I had started.

Erica’s POV

I came home. Mom and dad weren’t there. I wasn’t surprised. Dad was probably out drinking and mom working. I went upstairs to go start some homework, when I heard crying coming from Hayley’s room. I opened the door to see what was wrong.

“Hey Hayl-“

I stared at Hayley, my mouth wide open in shock. She was a mess, knife in one hand and blood dripping from the other. There was blood beginning to pool on her pristine white carpet. Her eyes were puffy and red from crying. The little glitter light that was normally in her eyes was gone. Why would she do this to herself?

“Fuck off, Erica,” she screamed. I slammed the door shut. Tears were forming in my eyes. I tried to hold them back but I couldn’t. I didn’t know what I should do…

I didn’t even realize I was running until I was out the front door and almost at the Farros’ house. I had to tell Josh. He would know what to do. He would help. He had to help. I rang the door bell twice and wiped my eyes. Mrs. Farro opened the door.

“Hello Erica! Come on in.”

“Hey, Mrs. Farro. Is Josh home?” I asked trying to seem calm and like nothing was going on.

“Sure, hun. He’s up in his room. You know the way.”

“Thanks, Mrs. Farro,” I called over my shoulder as I ran upstairs down the hall and the last door on the left. I didn’t even bother knocking. I ran right into Josh’s room. He was sitting on his bed doing something on his laptop.

“What the hell, Erica? Have you ever heard of knocking?!” he yelped, surprised by my sudden entrance. “Why are you here anyway?”

I didn’t know where to start. I blurted out everything I had seen in one breath.

Josh looked at me like I had three heads. “Wait, what? All I got out of that was Hayley, crying, and blood.

“Hayley’s cutting herself,” I managed to choke out. I wanted to cry again, but not in front of Josh.

“Oh –“ Josh and I stood there for a second looking at each other. Then everything seemed to click in Josh’s head.

“Shit,” he whispered. I nodded. He jumped off his bed and ran out of the house and to the direction of my house yelling to his mom that he would be back later. I followed him the best I could, but damn, he can run fast.

Hayley’s POV

I was curled on the floor. The blood was dripping from my freshly cut arm forming a small crimson pool. After a while the pain didn’t do anything anymore. It didn’t give me the relief I needed. It didn’t pull my focus elsewhere. I just became more and more immune to it. I looked at the knife I was clutching in my hand with tear clouded eyes.

Suddenly I heard the door rip open. I didn’t have the energy or the will to look up to see who it was. I didn’t care who it was. I just wanted them to go away.

“Hayley, oh God, Hayley.”

I recognized the voice. It was Josh’s. I glanced up to see his face contorted in pain. I guess I must have looked pretty bad laying on the floor with blood and a knife in my hand.

“It’s not what you think.” I said not wanting him to get mad. He didn’t say anything. He just pulled me up into his arms and held me tight. We stood there while he stroked my hair. He didn’t ask my why I did this, he didn’t ask me what I was thinking, he didn’t yell or get mad, he just held me and that was all I needed at the moment. He was all I needed at the moment.

I dropped my knife and slowly opened my eyes. I looked directly into Josh’s chocolate brown eyes. I saw the hurt in his eyes, but I also saw something else. Love. At least that’s what I hoped it was. I glanced over his shoulder to see Erica smile at me, I grinned back weakly.

“Hayley, look at me,” Josh whispered. I looked carefully at him.

“I…I…I love you, Hayles. Don’t ever do that to me again. I was so scared when Erica told me.”

I smiled. It was a real genuine smile. Not the fake one I had been using to fool people for weeks.

“I love you too, Josh,” I whispered as he hugged me closer. For the first time in a long time I felt like thins were right.

2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
ugh, graduation tonight, and what i'm gonna do with my hair.

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this survey and trying to figure out whta i want for breakfeast.

4. Honestly, what did you do today?
woke up, played with my dog, this survey. not a very eventful day...yet.

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
psh, no way.

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
i hope not considering i just woke up like 15 minutes ago.

7. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?
ahahah only when theres absolutely nothing else on tv.

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
yeah!

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
my friends=).

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
yes! such a bad habbit!

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?
tired and very indifferent.

12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
no.

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
yep.

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
doesn't everyone?! hahha.

16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
yeah, actually, i do.

17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
hmmm... i dunno.

18. Honestly, are you loyal?
yeah.

19. Honestly, are you in denial?
not that i know of...?

20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now?
ummmmm...no!

21. Honestly, who is your best friend?
hannah!

22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol?
yup.

23. Honestly, do you like someone?
yup.

24. Honestly, does anyone like you?
yup.

25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
i hope so.

26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?
yeah.

http://www.entertonement.com/clips/vzvxslzhkm--106

listen to this!^ some lady called 911 to get the number of an officer who came to her house because of a noise complaint by her neighbor because she thought he was cute. it's hilarious!

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Here's how you do it: Dear (someone you've talked to), I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11). (12), (Your name) then tag 10 people

1) What's the color of your shirt?

Blue - I'm in love with your cat

Red - Our affair is over

White - I'm joining the Convent

Black -Our romance is over

Green- Our socks don't match

Grey -You're a leprechaun

Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy

Pink - Your nostrils are insulting

Brown - The mafia wants you

No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you

Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?

January - That night you picked your nose

February -When I quoted Forest Gump

March - When your dwarf bit me

April - When I tripped on peanut butter

May - When I finally changed my underwear

June - When you put cuffs on me July - When I saw the purple monkey

August - When you smacked my ass

September - Last year when you peed your pants

October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub

November - When your dog humped my leg

December - When I threw up in your sock drawer

3) Which food do you prefer?

Tacos - In your apartment

Chicken- In your car

Pasta - Outside of your office

Hamburgers - Under the bus

Salad - As you were eating Kraft Dinner

Lasagna - In your closet

Kebab - With Jean Chrétien

Seafood - In a clown suit

Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert

Pizza - At the mental hospital

Hot dog - Under a street light

Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?

Yellow - Ignore

Red - Put whipped cream on Bla

ck - Hit on

Blue - Knock out

Purple - Pour syrup on

White - Carve your initials into

Grey - Pull the clothes off

Brown - bite off

Orange - Castrate

Pink - Pull the pants off of

Barefoot - Sit on

Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear? Black - My boyfriend White - My father Grey - The Catholic Priest Brown - The Montreal Canadian's goalie Purple - My corned beef hash Red - My knee caps Blue - My salt-beef bucket Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana Orange - My Blink 182 cd Pink - Your 'My Little Pony' collection Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV? One Tree Hill - Senile Heroes- Frostbitten Lost - High Simpsons- Cowardly The news - Scarred American Idol - Masochistic Family Guy - Open Top Model - Middle-class Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now? Happy - How awful you are Sad - How boring you are Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men Angry - That your smell makes me vomit Depressed - That we're related Excited - That I may pee my pants Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you Worried - That your Ford sucks Apathetic - That you need a sex-change Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid Other - That your driving sucks 8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your toe ring Yellow - Your love letters to me Red - The pictures from Vegas Black - Your pet rock Blue - The couch cushions Green - Your car Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your nose hair clippers Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket Pink - The cut toenails Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear 9) The first letter of your first name? A/B - My virginity C/D - photo with the mustache drawn on it E/F - Your neighbors dog G/H - The oil tank from your car I/J - Your left ear K/L - The results of that blood-sample M/N - Your glass eye O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X - Your sucide note Y/Z - Your credit cards 10) The last letter in your last name? A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass C/D - Always will remember the pep talks E/F -Never will forget that night G/H - Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard. I/J - Mocked you behind your back constantly K/L - Hate your cooking M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises Q/R - Get sick when I think of your feet S/T - Always wanted to break your legs U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart W/X - Haven't showered in a month Y/Z - am better off without you 11) What do you prefer to drink? Wine- Our friendship is ruined Soft drink - I'm off to lead a new life as a lemon Soda - I will haunt you when I'm reincarnated as an Eskimo Milk - The apartment building is on fire Water - I'm scratching my butt as you read this Cider- I have a passionate interest for mice Juice - You ruined my attempts at another world war. Snapple/Vitamin water - You should get that embarrassing rash checked out Hot chocolate - Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey Beer - Thanks for the Cocaine Other - you should stop picking your nose 12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand - Warm tingly sensations Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard France - Love always Spain - With tears of sadness China - You make me sick Germany - Please don't hurt me Japan - Go milk a cow Greece - Your everlasting enemy USA - Best of luck on the sex change Egypt - Kiss my butt England - Go drown yourself